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  <title>when we burst START  OVER</title>
  <subtitle>begin again begin again begin again</subtitle>
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    <name>Kishinami Hakuno (岸波 白野)</name>
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    <title>.spellbind app</title>
    <published>2017-08-01T02:56:51Z</published>
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    <title>Crosscheck Application</title>
    <published>2016-06-08T17:51:13Z</published>
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    <content type="html">&lt;span style="font: 18px georgia;"&gt;&lt;span style="color: #df3f3f;"&gt;♚&lt;/span&gt; OOC&lt;/span&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;b&gt;Name:&lt;/b&gt; Shana&lt;br /&gt;&lt;b&gt;Age:&lt;/b&gt; 22&lt;br /&gt;&lt;b&gt;Contact:&lt;/b&gt;  &lt;span style='white-space: nowrap;'&gt;&lt;a href='http://plurk.com/shanatic'&gt;&lt;img src='https://plurk.com/favicon.ico' alt='[plurk.com profile] ' style='vertical-align: text-bottom; border: 0; padding-right: 1px;' width='16' height='16'/&gt;&lt;/a&gt;&lt;a href='http://plurk.com/shanatic'&gt;&lt;b&gt;shanatic&lt;/b&gt;&lt;/a&gt;&lt;/span&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;b&gt;Character In-game:&lt;/b&gt; N/A&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;span style="font: 18px georgia;"&gt;&lt;span style="color: #df3f3f;"&gt;♛&lt;/span&gt; IC&lt;/span&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;b&gt;Name:&lt;/b&gt; Hakuno Kishinami&lt;br /&gt;&lt;b&gt;Canon:&lt;/b&gt; Fate/EXTRA &lt;br /&gt;&lt;b&gt;Canon Point:&lt;/b&gt; Post-Gilgamesh Route in Fate/Extra CCC&lt;br /&gt;&lt;b&gt;Age:&lt;/b&gt; Technically a few months old, having been created for the Grail War, but she was based off of a living person ~17 years old and exhibits a corresponding mental and emotional age.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;b&gt;Gender:&lt;/b&gt; Female&lt;br /&gt;&lt;b&gt;Species:&lt;/b&gt; (Digital Recreation of a) Human&lt;br /&gt;&lt;b&gt;Appearance:&lt;/b&gt; &lt;a href="http://65.media.tumblr.com/b396f1f2915e4394b6d3ff7dab1e3d82/tumblr_ngki9dYqbk1rye1gyo2_1280.jpg"&gt;The girl on the left.&lt;/a&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;b&gt;History/Background:&lt;/b&gt; &lt;br /&gt;&lt;a href="http://typemoon.wikia.com/wiki/Fate/Extra"&gt;Information about the first game.&lt;/a&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;a href="http://typemoon.wikia.com/wiki/Far_Side#Moon_Cell"&gt;Information about the wish-granting supercomputer (that is also the Moon) which the Grail War took place in.&lt;/a&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;a href="http://typemoon.wikia.com/wiki/Fate/Extra_CCC"&gt;Basic information about the second game.&lt;/a&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;b&gt;Personality:&lt;/b&gt;&lt;br /&gt;Hakuno, for all intents and purposes, was a complete blank slate at the very start of her existence. Originally crafted as an A.I. based on a cryogenically frozen girl to serve as an N.P.C. during the Moon Cell Grail War, she spent a brief time under the impression that she was a normal schoolgirl during the Preliminaries. However, when she took the place of a failed participant and managed to pass that round, she did not receive any 'true' memories, as her opponents had. Her 'other self' was an amnesiac due to her disease, and Hakuno was left bewildered and completely clueless as to the true nature of both the Grail War and her own existence.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;So, perhaps it's better to say she was merely 'the reflection of a blank slate', in the beginning.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;Bearing that starting point in mind, Hakuno at first glance seems like a normal girl in those strange, deadly circumstances: scared and confused by her circumstances, and clinging to her desire to live to survive. However, for all her lack of &lt;i&gt;memory&lt;/i&gt;, Hakuno isn't just some bland stand-in. Though she never manages to forget the threat looming above her, or the unsettling void where her memories should be, she narates her experiences with a sometimes sarcastic, usually dry wit. Often, she rides a fine line between self-derision and wary resignation, frequently comparing herself&amp;mdash;empty, unknowing, and without a cause beyond survival to drive her&amp;mdash;to the other, far more complex people she ends up pitted against.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;i&gt;&amp;quot;I'm here because I've accumulated victories and crushed dreams,&amp;quot;&lt;/i&gt; she says at one point near the end of the War in the first game. &lt;i&gt; &amp;quot;Because of the cost to others, I can't even imagine failure.&amp;quot;&lt;/i&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;Hakuno, for all her (lack of) life experience, remembered or otherwise, deeply respects all of her opponents. She empathizes with them, and is almost always hurt herself when the fight ends and the opponent is deleted. It wouldn't be an exaggeration to say that each fight she has helps cement her newly-minted humanity; she fights a selfish child, a man with noble intentions, a boy-king looking to unite the world under his rule, an assassin, and a literal ghost in the machine, among others, each one introducing a new facet of what it means to be a participant of the Grail War. She mourns each of them, pities some, even outright cries for others, and tries to make friends when she can. She can be a bit naive at times, simply as a by-product of honestly not knowing any better, but she is also very reasonable most of the time. She freely admits that she can see logic in the war-mongering plan of the Final Boss in the first game, but in the same breath firmly rejects that logic as one that is out-dated and ill-suited to the current state of humanity, as she has come to know it from the people she fought and befriended along the way.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;Ironically, while her initial weakness is that she lacks the resolve to throw herself into the Grail War one hundred percent, like a soldier or even somebody coveting the ultimate prize, at the end of it all she is able to weigh her death against a far greater threat, and march straight into the belly of the beast&amp;mdash;or in her case, the core of the Grail that will grant her wish and delete her as an aberration in the same instant&amp;mdash;without wavering. Once she makes up her mind, Hakuno Kishinami is not a person who can easily be swayed. Be it climbing her way to the top of a battle she doesn't fully comprehend or binding herself to an impossible, sometimes cruel Servant&amp;mdash;such as Gilgamesh, in the sequel&amp;mdash;Hakuno can show a backbone of pure steel when it comes to staying resolved.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;That progress, her slow build as a person and horrified realization of her true origins, is ripped away from her once again in Fate/Extra CCC, leaving her once again lost and uncertain. But not alone, in both better and worse ways. She finds a new Servant, one far more arrogant, more caustic, more self-indulgent and outrageous than any of the original three options from the first game: Gilgamesh, King of Heroes. From the very first moment they meet, he seems to be everything she isn't: vibrant, powerful, confident, bored, and seeking nothing but his own amusement. He is, when they meet, all-mighty and merciless, only deigning to stay with her after she sacrifices all three of her Command Seals&amp;mdash;which spell death for her, even if she does return to the other side of the Moon Cell&amp;mdash;as a way to kill time now that he has been awakened.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;If Hakuno's other relationships deepen her understanding of humanity, in the beginning it seems as though Gilgamesh is intended to do the opposite. Even her very first glance at him only poisons her view of herself, making her feel absolutely fleeting and insignificant compared to him. Once he starts talking&amp;mdash;and does he &lt;i&gt;ever&lt;/i&gt;&amp;mdash;Hakuno is more often than not treated to full discourses on everything from relationships between men and women, to money, to philosophy, to desultory remarks about anyone and everyone they know, in one way or another. He makes it clear from the start that he could kill her at any time, if the desire took him, and for a long time there is very clearly a strong undercurrent of fear coloring her views of him. Hakuno is smart enough to never forget that fact, but at the same time, she can't help but be fascinated and repelled by him in turn. Though she usually holds her tongue, some of his extreme views&amp;mdash;be they sexist, inhuman, or just outright cruel&amp;mdash;clearly clash with her own values, and occasionally she even speaks out. He's an existence she sometimes can barely fathom, let alone follow, but she soldiers on, and gradually begins to gain some sort of understanding.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;Even when given the chance to break her contract with him, she refuses; not out of affection, but out of an instinctual comprehension of the fact that if she wants to defeat all of her foes, then Gilgamesh is a weapon she should not&amp;mdash;can not&amp;mdash;part with. When she tells him this straight to his face afterwards, he all but laughs himself sick, and their dynamic seems to evolve a step. Though she is still insignificant in his eyes, he freely admits that he has underestimated her.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;i&gt;&amp;quot;You&amp;rsquo;re fretting over pointless things,&amp;quot;&lt;/i&gt; he tells Hakuno frankly not long after that, about halfway through the game, when memories of the War up to the Fifth Round are returned to the Masters on the Far Side and she can only speculate hopelessly about who she might have been before that time. &lt;i&gt;&amp;quot;Whether you were a good person or a bad person will not change the fact that you are a mongrel. For you, your &amp;ldquo;self&amp;rdquo; is a life you threw away into the darkness. For me, you are a life I happened to pick up. Even if your memories return and your past becomes clear, that will not change. Besides, you are not yet mature enough to do evil. If you would speak of atrocities, first set out to do good. If you can&amp;rsquo;t do that it would be better for you to die. When your worries crush you that will be the end of the show. I will go ahead and reap that head of yours without reserve.&amp;quot;&lt;/i&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;This is, perhaps, far more reassuring to her than it might seem, derogatory undertones and all. That sums up their relationship more or less; Gilgamesh has literally impossible standards, but the flip-side of that is that he always gives Hakuno something to strive for and something to depend on when she has very little to keep her grounded, even if it's just his cheerful, unceasing contempt. He scares her, infuriates her, exasperates her, encourages her, and altogether motivates her to keep pushing forward, even if the only thing she can be certain of is death after victory. She is literally taken aback when she is forced to realize that she does actually trust him, on top of all of that, but she accepts it and pushes onward still, hoping to someday be able to understand him, even if being equal is impossible. It culminates the moment she resolves to put her very existence on the line to restore his memories of her after they're separated, painfully being destroyed with each step:&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;i&gt;I started to trust him. I was just starting to think it wouldn&amp;rsquo;t be so bad to not want to acknowledge it. I confess, there were even times I respected him. I feel that the anger toward humanity that lurks in all his words is just. &amp;hellip;that&amp;rsquo;s why I keep going. He made a contract with me. So I&amp;rsquo;m not letting him duck out halfway through. I&amp;rsquo;ve got no intention of letting such a powerful Servant slip through my hands. If I&amp;rsquo;m going to have a partner, he&amp;rsquo;ll do quite well. Even with a Master as inexperienced as I am, he&amp;rsquo;s never once abandoned me. I need this Servant&amp;mdash;!&amp;quot;&lt;/i&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;Her hardship is rewarded, as she succeeds and then gains a fair amount of Gilgamesh's regard for the effort. He even breaks from his role as 'observer,' telling Hakuno that he will be her sword from that point out, and at the end of the game even fighting the Moon Cell itself to prevent her deletion. If it were anybody else, it's impossible to say whether reaching such a point with such an impossible Servant could be done, but luckily Hakuno Kishinami is a woman that never gives up&amp;mdash;to the point that it's even listed as her notable talent by TYPE-MOON.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;b&gt;Skills/Abilities:&lt;/b&gt;&lt;br /&gt;Hakuno is very much a jack-of-all-trades, master of none type. She can use a wide variety of 'Mystic Codes' if provided with them, but does not possess the knowledge to create codecasts and magecraft on her own. She learns fast and is very resilient, but in many ways she's still taking her first stumbling steps as an actual person. As a Master in the Moon Cell Grail War, she has zero personal combat experience, but her tactical skills were sharpened by the experience and she knows how to properly ration out healing items and spells when the need arises. Her biggest issue in transitioning to being an actual flesh and blood human has little to do with her capabilities being downgraded&amp;mdash;as a N.P.C.-based individual, she is very much average in all areas, from appearance to speed to stamina&amp;mdash;so much as it is the trappings of this new world's dubious mortality. While it was possible and highly common to die in the Moon Cell, that happened through deletion. Hakuno has been wounded before, has experienced food poisoning that should have killed twenty men, but she's never had the real-life experience of a paper-cut. She has never skinned a knee and bled. That in and of itself will be a type of culture clash that she will have to acclimate to before she can begin to build herself up on a combative scale.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;b&gt;Magic Weapon:&lt;/b&gt; &lt;a href="http://images.lancasterarchery.com/media/catalog/product/cache/1/image/13db83bec1fbd986744c31150a1b2502/4/7/4770251-black-side_1.jpg"&gt;Necrotic Payload Compound Bow&lt;/a&gt;&lt;br /&gt;The NPC Bow's main ability is to infuse a flesh-decaying poison into arrows, with an expenditure of mana each time. The process is somewhat costly with a weak dosage that takes longer to show effect at its lowest potential. At an intermediate potential, the mana-cost will be lower for infusions, but the wielder would have the option to expend more mana for a more intense and quicker acting dosage of poison. At its highest potential, the basic mana cost is negligible, the dosage can be modified at will, and the basic poison infusion will show effects almost immediately.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;b&gt;Carrier:&lt;/b&gt; &lt;a href="http://i.imgur.com/YfchXKx.png"&gt;A cute little squirrel.&lt;/a&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;b&gt;Sample:&lt;/b&gt; &lt;a href="http://chessnuts.dreamwidth.org/4900.html?thread=2679332#cmt2679332"&gt;TDM Thread&lt;/a&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;img src="https://www.dreamwidth.org/tools/commentcount?user=sealeted&amp;ditemid=1024" width="30" height="12" alt="comment count unavailable" style="vertical-align: middle;"/&gt; comments</content>
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