...Oi, Hakuno-chan, did you really hope that he wanted to contact me to make amends in the way he is trying to with you?
[ he asks softly, seeming more amused than anything else. ]
He looks at you and he looks at me and he sees two very different creatures. You can't change that, and he can't change it, either. You don't go out of your way to make amends to someone you are done with. There is no incentive. That's not him being cruel... that's just the nature of man. If anything, I suppose he deserves points for that.
It's fine, though. I got it off my chest, off my shoulders. The response [ he trails off, looking thoughtful as he tries to figure the words he is looking for. ] ...hurts, still, admittedly. the reality hurts, but... [ He shrugs. ] it's for the best.
I'll do what I've always done and shake it off. [ to Masamune, its kind of just now the aftermath of a shitty breakup without the other party doing anything beyond admitteding they don't feel anything for you anymore. He's aware that he'd be suffering through none of this is Gilgamesh didn't do anything to him in the first place and fuck with his head, but... what can you do? Either way, it's over. It's better to just stop trying to deny or hate or convince that even his own hurt is fabrication just like the rest of it and let it heal, first. Then he can look back on it to try and set things straight with himself. ] At least I can now instead of feeling stuck. And... I guess it has it perks. I mean, I got to get closer to you and meet and learn of some other presences here, and that first one really means a lot to me, especially.
[ That is something he can actually smile about every time he thinks of it. ]
I won't push you, the sooner you do the less time I get with you because it's another one to share your company with. [ And Masamune is ... strange, in that he is desperate for companionship that he will settle for being in the same room as another he wishes it from. So long as he's acknowledged her and there—with a smile, with a gesture, with a few lines of words spoken to him, he can be extraordinarily accepting of the circumstances without fuss.
Still, he's teasing more than anything, would never publicly show her himself being worried or upset by such concerns being reality. ]
Ah, right, this too: he never did come near me for it, either. And requested being allowed to speak to me before doing so.
[ He laughs, but it's friendly and good natured (it hides his embarrassment, too, at someone actually caring about his well being that aren't his servants.). ]
I am very grateful for you and your concern. Who knows where I would be right now if not for you. I just... don't like seeing you so unhappy over someone else's choices toward me. You need to worry about yourself more, too. You push yourself really hard for everyone and I wonder if you are harming yourself by not taking enough time for your own needs.
[ Masamune waves his hand lightly over the mention of Gilgamesh staying away. Masamune feels like his entire existence has involved way too much around that golden king and he needs to focus on those that actually are willing to do the same in turn. ]
So, I heard there's a festival going on in the city? Does it look nice or is it raunchy?
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[ he asks softly, seeming more amused than anything else. ]
He looks at you and he looks at me and he sees two very different creatures. You can't change that, and he can't change it, either. You don't go out of your way to make amends to someone you are done with. There is no incentive. That's not him being cruel... that's just the nature of man. If anything, I suppose he deserves points for that.
It's fine, though. I got it off my chest, off my shoulders. The response [ he trails off, looking thoughtful as he tries to figure the words he is looking for. ] ...hurts, still, admittedly. the reality hurts, but... [ He shrugs. ] it's for the best.
I'll do what I've always done and shake it off. [ to Masamune, its kind of just now the aftermath of a shitty breakup without the other party doing anything beyond admitteding they don't feel anything for you anymore. He's aware that he'd be suffering through none of this is Gilgamesh didn't do anything to him in the first place and fuck with his head, but... what can you do? Either way, it's over. It's better to just stop trying to deny or hate or convince that even his own hurt is fabrication just like the rest of it and let it heal, first. Then he can look back on it to try and set things straight with himself. ] At least I can now instead of feeling stuck. And... I guess it has it perks. I mean, I got to get closer to you and meet and learn of some other presences here, and that first one really means a lot to me, especially.
[ That is something he can actually smile about every time he thinks of it. ]
I won't push you, the sooner you do the less time I get with you because it's another one to share your company with. [ And Masamune is ... strange, in that he is desperate for companionship that he will settle for being in the same room as another he wishes it from. So long as he's acknowledged her and there—with a smile, with a gesture, with a few lines of words spoken to him, he can be extraordinarily accepting of the circumstances without fuss.
Still, he's teasing more than anything, would never publicly show her himself being worried or upset by such concerns being reality. ]
Ah, right, this too: he never did come near me for it, either. And requested being allowed to speak to me before doing so.
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[She hunches her shoulders a bit, not quite able to keep the embarrassed flush from her cheeks.]
I know better than to hope there's some fundamentally good man hiding in his heart.
[She's been in his Heart, after all.]
But, I'm glad he stayed away.
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I am very grateful for you and your concern. Who knows where I would be right now if not for you. I just... don't like seeing you so unhappy over someone else's choices toward me. You need to worry about yourself more, too. You push yourself really hard for everyone and I wonder if you are harming yourself by not taking enough time for your own needs.
[ Masamune waves his hand lightly over the mention of Gilgamesh staying away. Masamune feels like his entire existence has involved way too much around that golden king and he needs to focus on those that actually are willing to do the same in turn. ]
So, I heard there's a festival going on in the city? Does it look nice or is it raunchy?